first entry
16/01/24 - 23:00
3 days left to semester. i dont feel well 
. somethings wrong. i think. now im at a new high school. i barely made friends. i hate this. its like- no. i hate myself. i hate the fact that everytime i say im going to change im just... lying to myself. today, i was sitting on my girl best friends lap AS A JOKE. then the english teacher stormed in. i wasnt prepared. he probably thinks im gay now, because a few days ago a similar thing happened (i greeted the teacher. he asked me how am i, i answered "im great sir, what about you?" he said "excuse me?. i didnt understand why he said "excuse me" so i said "excuse me..??". he said "ohhh i thought you said 'im gay sir, what about you?', i was gonna answer no, im not gay hahaha!". i bet the teacher is homophobic. i guess.) so im nervous. i dont know why tho. just. theres something unsettling between me and people (not only the teacher). whatever whatever. it was raining after school and i was waiting for bus. and then a girl approached me and held an umbrella for me. i was. shocked. i dont know. most of the people would appreciate this buti felt weird. like. i get it now. its probably becase she showed me some "affection" that i was yearning for a long time. i didnt try to get affection so i never got. but today, this weird thing happened. we got on the bus. and when it was my stop i thanked the girl again. she might be a senior, or maybe a peer. but certainly not from my school. i guess. thats all for today. i will write again tmr, goodbye!
extra notes: today was arminas bday
second entry
17/01/24 - 13:48
2 days left to semester and friday is the deadline of the drawing submission. today is also basak's birthday. i didnt go to school today because there wasnt any classes in the last week of school. well, it was so hard to convince my dad that there is NOT any classes but in the end, im at home now. my little bro got ill. he has a flu. ALSO!!! 3 DAYS LEFT TO JAN 20, LOST IN THE CLOUD'S SEASON 3 RELEASE DATE!! IM SO EXCITED!!!! im also ill btw ehuehuehe :3
i have to start learning html and i have to start drawing GAHHHH its so bothersome i just want to sleep!!!! ToT
anyway i will continue writing here today bc im so early, so see u
third entry
18/02/24 - 16:45
WOAHAHHA HII THERE!!!!! ITS BEEEN A LOOOOOOOONG TIMWE SINCE I UPDATED MY SITEE LMAODOOD.. I HAH SOOO MANY THINGS TO DO IRL NGL XP BUT ITS OK MI BACK ATM!!!!
!! UPDATES!!!!
---LOST IN THE CLOUD SASON 3 IS RELEASED!!!!!
--- THE SEMESTER HOLIDAY IS ENDED :///
--- I FOUND 2 BROTHERS AND A SISTER AND THEY ADOPTED ME LMFAOAOAO NOW ILL VISIT THEM EVERY SMUMER ^W^ EMIN AND ARDA BRITHER AND IREM SISSY IF UR READING THIS I LUV U SM!!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3
---i might have a gf now!!! >__
--- I UPDATED THE SITE!!! still under construction tho.!! ill build my bio!! :3
yeah!! these are all of the updates, sorry for not writing in a while ;--; i have literature quizz on tuesday but still didnt study and its already 5 pm........ i shall start studying after this!!! might update the site again today sometime, so bye for now!!!!
fourth entry
20/02/24 - 01:19
AGRHHH it has been a long day.. i had chemistry class and the teacher was throwing us chemical bottles with CHEMICALS INSIDE. IM SERIOUS. SHE WAS LITERALLY THROWING THEM US TO CATCH. WHatever........... i was also eating a bagel mmeantime. LOOK i grabbed a "toxic" bottle and acted like i was sprinkling some salt on it (it was stupid, i know) to joke with my friends and GUESS WHAT, 
I REALLY SPRINKLED THAT SALTY TOXIC THING THAT TEACHER FORBID US FROM TOUCHING (she threw anyway)- and yeah it got all over my hand so if i die next 24 hours ermm attend to my funeral pls.!!
life update: my hair that i cutted for alyona finally grew like 4 cm. its been 5-6 months and i still cant get over her. why?
website update: finally finished home page lmao. its not as good as other sites but still its okay for me!!!
hey, if ur reading this, the secret order to press is 135642
